I don't know if I can trust anyone again.

Yo, I just came back from school after band and eating dinner with my awesome friends, Astley and Shermaine! <3

K, they are mine, don't steal horh. :P Jkjk. ^^

And btw, helloooooo blog! I'm back to blogging again. (: I'm sorry, I broke my promise of blogging everyday cause I'm lazy just like that. xD

The reason why I am back to blogging is that I have so many things bottled up inside, I just have to spill it all out somewhere. I don't know if I can trust anyone now. I know I can trust Astley, Shermaine, Huixian and some others but I don't think they would wanna just sit down and listen to me talk crap. It's selfish.

So, since I have not been posting much here, I noticed people don't even go to my blog anymore, I can just say now.

I have some friendship problems recently, blog. I don't know whether they are still my friends. Sometimes, they are so nice and friendly, but sometimes they just talk secrets amongst themselves and when I ask them, they won't say. I really don't know anymore ...

Something tells me not to trust them because I know they don't like my existence. I feel so "extra" around them. You must be thinking on why I still tag along with them. It's because I wanna give them a few chances, I wanna see if their attitude towards me change. If it changes, its for the better? Or worse? I have so many questions in my mind. If only someone can help me answer them.

Friendships are just so complicated. School, homework, parents, teachers, all the stress and pressure. How long more can I handle all of this? Be sure of this, I won't be so stupid to do anything foolish. Don't worry. (:

I just need some time to sort out my mind, and everything else. My grades are dropping drastically too. How do I face my parents? Everything is not working out so far. I appear happy and always smiling. The truth is, I just wanna scream and cry, plug in my earpiece and ignore the world.

I know I have friends I can trust. Or not? Will they disappoint me too? I've learnt to be a better friend, at least, try to. I don't wanna be troublesome. :') I will try to laugh and smile as long as I can. I think I've ranted enough. All the best to me.

Signing off,

8:16pm

~Iloveyou~